People that have known me a long time will tell you I’m a pretty passionate person. Though I’ve become a bit more level headed over the past few years, I still tend to go over the top at times. Depending on one’s perception, it can be taken different ways. So I thought I’d clear some things up.
I’m pretty bummed…bummed that I have been perceived as someone who not only hates the church in general, but more specifically, my old church…Cedar Park. Cedar Park was a place I called home for about 14 years. Many good things happened in my life during my time there. I will always be grateful for the memories, knowledge, and love shown me by so many. While I do disagree with the organization’s methods towards gay marriage (and the gay community as a whole), there have been many other great things that have been accomplished for the good of many people. I have no ill will. None.
But then there is church in general…And while I do not see church like I used too, I do not hate its people. I think there is so much good that can come out of the church culture (and sometimes does), that some of the misunderstood parts of it are worth some of the negatives.
I guess what bums me the most is how quickly it seems people have forgotten my heart. I have no malice towards anyone. I DO have issues with some institutional ways of thinking, but I’ve never meant to hurt anyone. (Does anyone remember that our battle is not against flesh and blood?)
Nevertheless, I have caused hurt…
So I’m sorry for bringing any offense to anyone. I really am. And if I could ask just one thing: please consider what you know about me… as a person. I genuinely care about people and what it is that I’m saying. I never lash out at an individual, in fact, when I see “vaguebooking” on Facebook, I think it’s incredibly childish. Please don’t assume that just because I have SOME views that are now more liberal, that I’ve traded everything I am just so I can roll with my more liberal friends. For example: I’m actually still pro-life (though I have a penis so my opinion is worthless lol), and I’m a believer in the death penalty. I even tend to favor more capitalistic economic approaches than socialism… though we’re pretty screwed up in that area too right now. The point is that I think for myself. The anger I might have for churches at times, is very similar to the anger I sometimes feel toward giant corporations. Let’s face it, they are run very much the same way.
I sincerely appreciate intelligent thought and conversation… especially when someone asks for clarification on what I’m saying. But I’m tired of the assumptions. Just tired… When I post something controversial, please don’t stomp off like a child and say “oh John’s just on his way to hell now…he’s lost.” It’s one thing if the friendship just doesn’t mean that much to you anymore. I guess that happens. I’ve had my fair share of people that “unfriended” me where I didn’t give it a second thought.
But there are those I really miss…and I refuse to believe that things have to remain the way they are. Our differences should never be this divisive.
Thanks for reading and as always, I welcome your thoughts.
John